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| sOoO its been awhile.. |
[16 Sep 2004|12:35am] |
And since some people actually read this.. ill update just for them :] SOO.. whats new in my life?
FIRST OFF, i now work two jobs.. yes..TWO. Its actually not bad at all bc so far things have been working out.. i work at the Samoset Resort in the morning.. from 9 until whenever i get my stuff done.. which is anywhere between 2ish.. and 4ish.. then i work nights at my old job.. that ive been at for like two effing years now.. eeek. I work there from 4 or 5.. until 1015ish.. but i work both jobs one day, then the next day ill only work at one.. so it hasnt been too bad! I like having money.. and since im going to Cosmetology school.. the extra money is helping out with costs for that :]
BOYS BOYS BOYS.. so im still single.. which is perrrrfectly fine bc I dont really have anyone im interested in right now. The other night at work.. a boyyyyy got my number :] He went to Wyoming for a week today though.. but who knows what could happen with that? We'll seee when he gets back :] And if not.. there are some sexxxyyy fellas i work with.. so thats always a possibility too :D EVERYTHINGS FIIIINEE bc im in no rush to find mr.right.. im still pretty convinced he lives on the other side of the planet or something.. haha
FRIENDS? eeeeeeek. SERIOUS issues when it comes to that.. some things are still up in the air, and tonight was just one of those nights.. and everything came out. Im nto sure whats gonna happen.. but me and Amanda spent a big chunk of tonight riding around aimlessly just talking about life.. and everything thats goiog on right now. Ever since the Hanson concert i feel like amanda and i [ aka my FANSON and i] have become a lot closer.. not just bc we both LOVE hanson more than we should.. but bc its made us a lot closer.. and ive realized we have so much more in common.. and on top of the fact that we work the same jobs.. and have pretty much the same schedule.. so we're together everyday.
There isnt really anything too wonderful going on in my life right now.. working a lot, chillin a lot.. starting Cosmetology school soon.. and when im done with that im gonna go back n take the courses on Nails too.. so that should be cooool :]
Im getting a new computer within the next couple weeks.. and when i do, my new site will be up.. so for those few people who actually take the time to read about my boring life.. and take the time to email/IM me n let me knowwww... SOON SOON SOON :] I cant wait.. my site is ognna be so effin awesome.. bc its gonna have so much more than suck-my-kiss did.. just waaaaaaiiitt n see.. youre all gonnna love it :D
ALRIGHT, thats it for now.. its almost 1am and i cant believe i let myself stay up this late.. i have to work BOTH JOBS tomorrow.. ewwwww. I am going to be sooo tired.. but, on the brighter side of things... tomorrows pay day :D
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| im such a fanson. |
[23 Aug 2004|08:17pm] |
Okay.. so pretty much Sat/Sun was INSANE. I effing love hanson way too much, its crazy.. i dont ever see myself not loving that band. We ended up getting to the state theater at 4am and there were already people tented out! I guess the first girls in line had been camped out there since Friday night.. now that is some dedication! I only got maybe a little over an hour of sleep bc its kinda hard sleeping on a cold sidewalk in downtown portland haha.. and oh my god! There was this drunk bum/weirdo guy.. ewww. He kept walking by and was like HANSON IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THSI MY WHOLE LIFE!! and then hes like "theyre almost 11 now right?" ,, and THEN he effing asked if he could sleep with us in the sleeping bags to wait for the show.. haha.. he was so gross. All the girls that were cmaping out ahead of us were so nice.. FANSON FRIENDS ARE THE BEST :] Its cool meeting people at Hanson shows.. everyones usually really cool.. we save eachothers spots in line n stuff.. and its cool cos i see a lot of the same people at all the shows. I met these two girls.. Nicole and Tonya.. at the Hampton Beach show and we met up with them in Boston and then again last night.. :] Doors didnt open till 6 and when it was around 4-5ish.. all these people kept kinda trying to merge into line.. and just coming up front like they had been there all along.. and i was getting pissed.. along with the other 20 girls in the group of people who had camped out there.. and goood thing amanda was there! haha.. it was funny.. im not the kind of person to really say anything to those girls.. i was just pissed but i didnt say anything.. well amanda was like "if you havent been here since 4am or before.. then you need to get your ass to the back of the line NOW" and no one left so shes like "im serious, get your ass to the back of the fucking line.. you didnt sleep on the fucking sidewalk.. so get the fuck back" hahah.. it was great, and those girls got their asses to the back of the line too.. :p Once doors opened and we got in there.. ahhh, i was so effing pumped! I was right up in the front too.. woooo :D HANSON FANS ARE BRUTAL oh my god.. you get kicked and hit and slapped and stepped on and sweaty girls pushing you n stuff.. eeeek. Everyones just constantly pushing.. you have to be so aggresive or youll lose your spot.. so between that, and belting out every word to every song.. and jumping up and down.. and dancing and it being like 500 degrees in there.. i dont know how i didnt pass out! haha.. my throat hurt so bad when we left.. but its feelin a little better todayyyy. You werent allowed to have cameras.. they even searched bags.. which sucked bc we had a total of 4 dispisable cameras we wanted to bring in! SOoo.. we hid them.. in our shirts and pants.. and we got them in :] I took a picure of Zac during his solo bc he was RIGHT THERE i mean.. come on now, like i WOULDNT take a picture haha.. and the guard saw me n hes like GIVE ME THE CAMERA! but i had slipped it back to amanda real quick so im like I DONT HAVE ONE n hes like YES YOU DO GIVE ME THE CAMERA! i waas like ahh no i dont so he left me alone.. but they watched me like a fucking hawk the rest of the show so i couldnt get any other pictures :[ Which effing sucks cos i was like RIGHT there.. i could have gotten sooo many awesome pictures :[ OH WELL THOUGH.. last night was just soooo awesome.. i love every part of those shows.. i love the camping out.. the waiting in line and being asked about 100 times by everyone walking by "WHO ARE YOU ALL WAITING TO SEE?".. i love meeting all kinds of FANSONS.. i love hanging around the tour bus when they get to the venue.. i love the wayy all Zac has to do is play 2seconds of the beat of a song and i already know what theyre gonna play.. [ oh yeaaa im that good.. IM A HARDCORE FANSON ] i just.. ahh, i love that band way too much haha.. its so crazy that ive liked them for so long.. and im like, GROWN UP.. im 18, and im still so into them.. and ive been a fan for like almost 8 years now.. insaaaaaane.
ALRIGHT, im gonna go.. im getting my hurr did tomorrow.. fun funn.. but i def. had to post about my HANSON showwww haha :]
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| im so stupid. |
[21 Aug 2004|01:43am] |
Its soo late, and im soo tired.. and i work in the morning.. but oh well :p haha.. I just got back from Dennys with Heathy.. woooaaaah, talk about SKETCHY.. that place was definately full of some cool people tonight.. [[ esp. a certain SOMEONE.. who drives that hot purple car ;} hahahaha }}
I havent really been up to anything TOO exciting lately.. working.. and chillin with everyone.. nothing special. Yesterday was Heathys bday so i went to Augusta with her and Jen and that was funnn.. we went to a Headstart show too! I ended up going over to Trav and Coreys house with Katie and Kara last night too.. i got home at like.. 2.. then had to work this morning :-\ YOU KNOW WHAT MAKES ME MAD?!
Alright, soo i kinda had a crush on Trav.. it wasnt a HUGE one.. just one of those.. oh hes cute, id like to get to know him type ones.. and i gave him my # a couple weeks ago n told him to call so we could chill.. well he never called, i mean i still saw him every now and then.. and corey calls all the time to see if i wanna chill with them.. but HE didnt call, HE didnt make any annitiative AT ALL towards anything.. so i just figured he wasnt interested.. which was perfectly ok. Last night we were all chillin n stuff and i just realized.. i dont really like him like that.. i mean, i dont think we really click, you know? We're two totatlly different people.. we're into completely different things.. hes not really the kind of guy i would usually go for or anything. SO WHAT HAPPENS TONIGHT?! Im at work.. him n corey come in.. i talked to them for a minute, got them some food.. then went back to working.. and he makes me come back out n sit with him n talk and he asks what im doing tonight.. blah blah blah.. saying i should stop by n stuff.. and "if i didnt call them.. theyd call me" WHY COULDNT HE SHOW SOME ITEREST LIKE.. a coupleweeks ago?!? As soon as i stop crushing.. is when he wants to chill.. OF COURSE THATS HOW IT WORKS!!
Im sooo effing stupid.. seriously. This whole issue with Sean.. uggghh. I try to just.. not think about it, REALIZE nothing GOOD can ever come of this.. i try to find interest in other guys.. but bleh. I think i was just so.. pissed off at the entire sitatuon, and pissed at the fact he was being an asshole to me.. and not even talking to me other than to be an ass. It made me sooo upset.. and angry.. that this whole thing was even happening.. and then when hed make comments to marueen and amanda.. i was so upset bc i was so JEALOUS! I was just mad at the situation, and sooo frustrated.. but oh my god i still like him.. so much.. just as much if not more than before.. bleh. Its so hard bc its so.. stupid.. and pointless. Its not like i expected anything toe ver come of this.. i mean, even after we kissed.. i never thought anything would become of it.. hes married!!!!! I never went into this thinking something would happen between us.. but i cant help the fact that i do have feelings for him. I tried to just not even think about it.. but its hard. You know how sometimes with certain people, you can jsut look at them.. and know how theyre feeling.. its all in his eyes.. the way he looks at me, i know what hes feeling. Waaay back, when everything first started.. the way we looked at eachother, i mean.. it was just so obvious he was feeling the same way i was. The past week or so.. hes been trying to talk to me n stuff.. and it sucks. I dont even talk to him barely.. its more like i just give a reply.. and im so short about it, then jsut go about my business.. and i hate it. I want to talk to him.. i want to flirt, i want to SMILE when he says things to me.. but i cant :\ I cant show any type of feelings for him at all.. bc its WRONGGGGGGG :[ He appologized to me the other night.. for "being an asshole the past couple weeks".. and i figured he had talked to Henry [ another guy at work ] bc.. me n Henry were talking about the whole sitation a few days before. Henry and Sean are friends.. so..they talk alot at work.. i asked him if he had said anything n he said no.. but then told me why HE thought sean appologized... i guess henry had said something like.. yeah, i like taryn.. i wouldnt mind hooking up with her.. and sean didnt say anything after that.. and then hes like "sean liked what happened.. it meant something.. its still on his mind.. but hes married" ugghh :\ as soon as i heard that i wanted to just.. bleeeh, cry.. anything. :[ It meant something to me too.. and it sucks. THENN maureen tells me he was saying stuff to Dan? I dont know.. the other night Sean told me my pants were "attracting a lot of attention at work".. lol.. im like "oook?" i got these new black pants i wear to work.. and i mean theyre not tight really.. theyre just.. black pants lol, i dont know.. but dan henry and sean seem to like them.. but I DONT WANT HIM TO! i dont want him to compliment me cos it makes things harder :[ i dont know.. but i dont want to heaaaaaar about it. its easy when hes being an ass to me.. cos that just pisses me off, and i wont even want to be around him.. it would just be easier if none of this meant anything to him.. but i know it does :\ If he didnt look at me the way he does.. it would be easier. The other night he was taking his break and i was out cleaning some stuff up.. and i actually said HELLO to him as i was walking out back.. he got this smile on his face, bc i neverrr talk to him.. i never just say HEY like i used to.. i never ask how hes doing.. we never say anything more than a couple words here and there. I know im dumb, so i dont need ppl posting on this entry telling me that.. and i dont need annonymous ppl calling me a whore either.. bc you just dont get it. I could see how i may look like the dumbest person ever.. for even feeling the way that i do.. but i really really cant help it. He says two words to me and im on cloud nine.. lately hes been just been saying things, just little things here and there.. and it seriously just makes my day. I need to not think about the way he makes me feel.. or the way he kisses.. or just, sedghsdhgsdhgaejo thje AHH .. anything!! I need to think about HIS WIFE!! And her CRYING her eyes out to me.. and how incredibly horrible i am for even feeling the way i do.. bc nothing can ever happen with me and him..... and that sucks sooooooooooooooo much.
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| heyyyyy |
[11 Aug 2004|07:57pm] |
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WELL HEYYYYyy.. im chillin at amandas right now.. waiting for kara and kendra to get heeere :] Last night was pretty fun.. it was Kendras 21st bday.. sooo OBVIOSLY we were drinking haha.. we made sex on the beach JERSEY STYLE.. mmm soo good.. it didnt even taste like alcohol. Ive been running on close to NO sleep at all for the past week.. and today was my day off, so i slept...... ALLLLLLL day. I didnt wake up until 410pm haha.. i dont think ive ever slept in that late before! I didnt really do much of anything today.. woke up, took a shower.. came over here to chill with everyone for awhile.. took Jared home.. went back to my house to change into pants cos it was getting cold.. and heeeere i am. Im thinking about going to VA on the 23rd.. My hanson concert is the 22nd, and Sher REALLY wants me to come down and visit her.. and i reaaallly want to.. i just hope i have the money for it. I havent seen her in like 2 years :[ My last VA trip was awesome.. so hopefully this one will be just as fun! HmMmMm.. nothing else to say really.. nothing too great or intersting has been going on.. the summers getting close to ending.. blah blah blah.. ill write more when i have something worth saying!
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| i need a boyfriend who can give me a backrub.. ahh |
[09 Aug 2004|12:49pm] |
My back hurts so effing bad, and i dont know whyy!!! I think maybe I need a new bed? I dunno, but im in pain.. and its no fun.
Im at amandas right noww.. just chilllin pretty much, Katies meeting us here then we're going to Subway for lunch. We went to the gym this morning, that was funn.. and we found out they have pilates classes on Tuesday nights and Thursday mornings.. soo we're gonna start going to the ones on Tuesday nights.. that should be coool :]
I worked 12-930 yesterday.. but it wasnt bad at all! HE worked.. uggghh. At first he was like.. saying sorry anytime he was in my way or anything.. just.. not being an ass. And then he tried to talk to me about this other guy at work or something, I dunno.. he was acting like NOTHING happened.. acting like it was ok to talk to me n joke around.. whennn it obviously isnt, bc hes a cunt. I didnt say anything to him the entire night.. even though i soooo wanted to.. but i didnt.. UNTIL THE END! Amanda was out at 5.. we closed at 9.. she was chillin with me n kara after work.. and so she came in at 9 to help us do the closing things.. and she wasnt in her work clothes or anything, but OH FUCKING WELL you know? we were closed.. its not a big deal.. everyyoooneee does it.. but sean was being a wine ass bc he had a shitlaod of dishes to do.. and no one was gonna help him do anything, bc no one that was working happens to like him.. and we were all done with our stuff, so we were leaving... SO WHAT DOES HE DO?! Gets out the MANAGERS BOOK.. not that hes a manager or anything.. and writes down a complaint about amanda.. whaaat the fuck. what was the point of that? other than the fact that hes a cunt of course.. the fucking managers wife is like.. never in her uniform.. and no one has a problem with it.. i dont understand why he thinks anyones gonna say anything to amanda about her not being in hers.. when we were closed. that kinda peeved me.. soo, i said something to him about the whole LYING TO HIS WIFE issue.. and he told me he didnt say it.. psssshhh. i could tell jsut by the look on his face that he was lying.. but whatever. its done.. its over, he doesnt get the issue. he didnt seem to understand why i cared so much that he lied to his wife.. he thought i cared bc i thought she was ognna like.. beat me up or something? lol.. NoOoOo not quite.. shes not the type of person to do that first off.. and, we talked it out... things are okay with us now.. i mean no things arent PERFECT.. we're not exactly the best of friends.. but things are okay. i care because i dont want him.. or anyone, to say shit involving me.. that isnt true. i dont care if the whole situation is done and over.. the faaact is, he lied.. he told her shit .. that i said/did.. whatever, that was so farrr from the truth.. and that bugs me. he jsut doesnt get that though.. oh welllllll, let him be a lying little cunt.. im done with whole sitation.. he can do what he wants.
ALRIGHT, well katies here.. and im so effing hungry.. so i hope we're heading to subway now! haha :]
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| oh my god what a fucking LOSER BITCH ASS MARRIED MAN CUNT. |
[07 Aug 2004|11:41pm] |
WOAAAH. Soo, since everything happened I havent talked to Erica [seans wife..]. Tonight i get out of work and shes there.. and usually when i see her we dont talk or anything its just in passing or something.. and so i was leaving and she asked if we could talk. I was so scared.. you dont even know how friggin scared i was. We talked for probably a good 20-25minutes.. and at one point we were both in tears.. i mean, theres just so much i cant even write on here.. she really is the sweetest girl.. bleh. I mean ive felt so guilty.. and been upset about it and stuff, i feel incredibly horrible for letting whatever happen.. happen.. but after tonight i feel a million times worse. We kissed, yeaaah we didnt sleep together or anything.. but still.. it shouldnt of happened. I want to tell her everything, but shes sooo broken up about us kissing once.. that if she knew everyyyttthhiiiinggg.. it would not be good.. and i couldnt tell her tonight, shes DUE any day.. that would friggin stress her out beyond belief.. and thats not good for the baby either :[ Uggh, i seriously feel like.. dirt. I mean, i try so hard to be a GOOD person.. i cant even believe i was so selfish and stupid.. and this, i so friggin deserve.. cos i was soo into him.. and i didnt even THINK about anything other than that. blaaah.. it sucks bc.. she was saying how she thought of us as friends.. like when we worked together n stuff, we talked.. and she thought we were starting off at a good friendship.. and that sucks, bc i could of had a really good friendo ut of the deal.. cos she really is a good person.. but.. no. I chose to be a dumbass and like this loser ass of a married man and forget everything else.. and HES NOT EVEN THE PERSON I THOUGHT HE WAS! Like, im seeing him.. the real him.. not the person i THOUGHT he was.. and its crazy.. bc the person he is and the person i thought he was.. are two completeeeelyyyy different people. He is a fucking.. sleeze.. and beyond that, after hearing some of the shit she told me tonight.. about his past n stuff, and how hes treated her.. that makes me look at him as being even worse. HE FUCKING STRAIGHT UP LIED TO HER TOO! and that fucking pisses me off.. bc, he said we kised once.. NOPE.. he said no one initiated it.. it just happened.. NOPE.. AND THEN! OH MY GOD! GET FUCKING THIS!! He gets panic attacks.. and i knew this.. well.. WHAT REALLY HAPPENED: a lil while after we kissed i noticed he looked like something was bothering him.. and so i asked if he was ok.. he said he was fine.. so i said alright and went about my business.. THIS IS WHAT HE TOLD HER!!!!!!!!! So he was feeling bad about kissing me n stuff n he was getting a panic attack so he went in the bathroom for a min to calm down or whatever, and then when he came back in i asked if he was ok.. he said no.. SO I SUPPOSEDLY SAID "well why dont you come back in the walk in again for another sample.. that will make you feel better" ............................. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!! HELLLOOO! Does that sound like something I owuld say? UHMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM no. What a fucking cunt he is for lying liket hat.. stupid little bitch anitiated [sp] EVERYTHING so he can fucking kiss my ass.. AHH. That makes me so mad that he would say that, try to make it sound like it was all me.. when it definately was not ALL me.. UGH. I want to say something to him soooooooo bad at work tomorrow.. just cos WOW. hes such a fucking asshole to me now too.. like he goes out his way to say shit and i jsut wanna fucking be like STOP BEING A BITCH!! and then he straight up lied to his fucking wife like that.. maaaaaaaan. when i see him tomorrow, ahh. i know im just gonna be soo STRESSED...
BUT, anyways.. lol. AHH.. im so STRESSED and like.. pissed about that.. just thinking about him and the cunt that he is... ok.. im really gonna stop talking about that haha.. TODAY WAS GOOD other than that! I worked allll day.. but suprisingly it wasnt busy at all.. and i was expecing it to be insane since the lobster festival is going on n stuff, which means theres like a milliooonnnn tourists in this town.. bleh. AMANDA worked with me tonightt.. and we got our schedules for next week.. and we work together every single day haha.. so thats sweeeeeeeet.. work is always muccchhh more enjoyable with her there :] We left work at like 1045ish and then we chilled for a bit.. smoked some reeeeeefer cos we like to do that.. and now heeere i am!
Theres so much random stuff i wanna write about.. but im tired, and im gonna work a double tomorrow.. bc i want money for stilettos :[ i knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww im a dork but i have a serious issue with shoppping.. sooooo im gonna get some sleep.. but i will defiantely write tomorrow!
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| i love naps<3 |
[06 Aug 2004|04:01pm] |
I just took the best 30min nap ever.. ahhhh i love sleep <333
WELL, i gotta go to work now.. im gonna be lateee.. tehhehe.... ME AND AMANDA ARE GONNA BE WILIN OUT TONIGHT.. hahahaha..... AHHH i have so much energy right now.. ill write more later, bc i have lots to write :]
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| im tiiiired. |
[05 Aug 2004|08:39am] |
I hate working mornings, bc im definately not a morning person. I could sleep alllllll day... bleh.
I went to the doctors yesterday, he told me it was allergies... i reaaalllyyy dont think its allergies.
Okay, im gonna go brush my teeth and leave for work now.. byeeee<3
OH YEAH..... i took out my lip ring.
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| i feel like ass. |
[04 Aug 2004|12:45am] |
Blaah, my ears feel clogged.. my nose is stuffy, and my throat is in sooo much pain! :[ katie brought me in a bag of cough drops at work tonight.. which was veryyy nice of her! I just.. feel like ass. bleh. I probably shouldnt SMOKE.. im sure thats not helping my throat at all right now...
But, on a much more positive note.. i got to hang out with him tonight.. ahhh<3
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| i want to be kissed. |
[02 Aug 2004|09:12pm] |
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Blaaah, im in a mood. I dont want to HEAR about LOVE or people and their wonderful boyfriends.. and makeout sessions, and passionate sex.. and... just.. ahhh. Where is my someone? </3 I just wanna be held..
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| ooohh baby you want mee? you could get this lapdance here for freee |
[02 Aug 2004|02:40am] |
..ohh yeahh.. im listening to N.E.R.D.. LAPDANCE! Its almost 3am.. and im still awake! Im just eating my brown Sugar Cinanmon poptart.. mmmm, amd drinking orange juice! Im homne alone again tonight.. my parents and my brother all went camping for the weekend.. so ive had the house to myself!
Yesterdayyy.. i worked 930-4.. which wasnt too bad. After, i played pool with Kara Kendra and Joey.. and i suck. We had teams, but.. the only reason my team won was bc Joey actually knew how to play haha :] We didnt do anything too special last night.. i was with katie, kara, kendra, and amanda till latee.. then came home and went to sleeeep. I had to work at 4 today.. and it reallyyy effing sucked.. a lot. I thought it was gonna be a good night, since it was sunday.. which means its usually slow, and I was working with Amanda. WELL, it wasnt really that slow.. and effing Sean was working which stressed me out. He makes me soooo mad, I cant even explain..
Trust me when I tell you, never ever ever ever allow yourself to be attracted to a married man. What sucks in this sitation is the fact that hes soo far from the person i THOUGHT he was.. its crazy. Hes such a cunt, like.. seriously. I want to just be like LOOK.. YOURE MARRIED.. DO YOU NOT REALIZE THAT?! uggghhh.
After work i chilled with the usual.. kara, kendra, katie.. and amanda. Everyone came over here since no one was home.. smoked some reeeefuh.. it was fun. I got in this crazy cleaning mood after everyone left and ended up cleaning the entire house.. even my room. My room looks so pretty now, everythings all clean and organized! I was half way through hanging up my clothes when heathy came over!! HEATHY I LOVE YOU :] She jsut came to chill for a lil bit, she needed someone to talk to.. aaaanndd, im the coolest friend ever.. so thats why she came here :D haha
You know what i noticed about myself? I hum! Like.. a lot. How random is that? I dont even mean to.. but i just always have some type of music stuck in my head.. so i hum. AND, i say "wilin out" a lot. haha.. HAS ANYONE SEEN THE MOVIE HONEY?! That movie is just... ghettofabolous. lol.. Its so cheesy its great.. ever since me n katie saw it.. we say WILIN OUT alll the time.. sooooooooo random, and completely DUMB and no one cares but blaaahhh rlyhgkrutkleswjtlkjskljrtioe
TIme for sleeep.. beach in the morning.. then going out to look for a new job!!
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| can you say.. fuck youuuuuu |
[31 Jul 2004|04:22pm] |
FIRST OFF, eff you to whoever wrote that ruuuuude UNEEDED COMMENT on my last entry.. im not a whore.. and i didnt go after him. Leaving posts with no name..? ARE WE 10?
And, YEAH. Thats it! haha.. i just got out of work.. sooo, now im gonna go shower and chill with my CRONEYS cos thats the cool thing to do!! Perhaps a partyyyy tonight.. [ thanks for calling me at 3am to let me know about it Nate haha :] ] Ill write something interesting.. later.. hopefully!
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| its so niceee out todayy.. beach dayyy <3 |
[30 Jul 2004|11:05am] |
Heyyyyy, just waiting for Kara to get here.. then we're headed to the beach!! I dont have to work until 4.. and its only 11, so that gives us awhile :] Yesterday was my only day off.. and it was a prettyyy goood day. I chilled with Amanda for awhile.. we went n got our checks.. cashed them, went out to lunch.. stuff like that. I only worked 2 days last week so my check was only $122, but thats not toooo bad. I didnt owe anyone money besdies Kara.. we were in JC Penney the other day [ me, kara, and katie ] and we were bored so we tried on like 50 million dresses haha.. and I found this one white one.. its sooooooooo cute. Its dressy, but I could wear like.. white flip flops or something with it and dress it down.. and it would still be raelly cute.. and I didnt have money so kara, being the greaaat friend she is.. got it for me since there was only one left :] I dont know whereee Im gonna wear it.. but ill find a place bc its so effing adorable. I had to get some more shampoo and conditioner and stuff like that yesterday.. and i spent like $50 at wal mart haha.. im such a dork. Im so weird about stuff like that though, i use all special shampoo and conditioner.. and lotions,and face wash.. you should see my collection of "girly" stuff.. its sad. But, the stuff lasts awhile so atleast I wont have to spend another $50 for about a month.
ME KATIE VERONICA AND DANIELLE are going on a big shopping trip in NH.. Sep. 11 and 12th!! I cant wait.. I think this will help me from OVER SPENDING on clothes.. cos ill just save money here and there up until then.. and not spend it all as soon as i get it! :p Every single horoscope type thing ive read lately.. says "stop over spending!" "try not to over spend!" "save your funds" .. haha, maaaybe i should listen!!
WELL kara just called and said shes on her wayyy.. sooo i better get going.. im glad things are going pretty GOOD right now! I think its bc im keeping myself busy.. im ALWAYS with someone.. always doing fun stuff, not thinking about stupid shit.. and its SUMMER.. sooo, im doing good :] OH YEAH!! IM GETTING MY TRIP PICTURES BACK TODAY!! i completely forgot aboutt hat.. so ill be sure to post some of thoseee tomorrow :] YAYYYYy
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| yesterday was an awesome day. |
[29 Jul 2004|10:03am] |
Nothing special happened, but it was just.. a good day. I slept in.. got up n ready.. and hung out with Amanda, Kara, and kendra before work. Amanda and I were in at 4 and Kara was in at 5.. and we busted ass up until the end and were out of there at 1020. I was in such a good mood at work too [[ i wonder whyyy.. KARA!! tehehehe ] and it wasnt really busy so none of us were stressed or anything. Sean talked to me again last night.. i was sweeping, and hes like "will you sit down for a minute?" .. and i didnt, lol. But, we talked for a sec... he was just like "taryn, i genuwinely do like you.. but at the same time I have respect for my wife.. and she doesnt like you" .. and blah blah blah. Ive never had anyone like.. HATE me, you know? I never give anyone reason to, i never get enemies, BUT NOW I HAVE ONE.. and she has all the reason in the world to dislike me. I mean, theres not much i can do about it.. its my own fault.. its just one of those things im gonna have to deal with..
After work... KATIE KARA AMANDA AND KENDRA.. and I.. had lots of fun. OH MY GOD katie is seriously the most funny person ever when shes high.. i swear we were sitting in amandas car laughing non stop for an hour.. "Yeah, we're all just totally different people.. who hang out because we like Hanson and Juvenile" hahaha.. i definately cant forget the whole GOERGIA THING! "yeah lets get her in to......." hahahaha... and YEAH, theyre gonna go to the hanson show with me.. well Amanda likes them so she already was planning on going.. and Kendra, im getting her a ticket for her bday.. but now Kara and Katie wanna go cos we're gonna have funnn making signs n shit.. katie wants to make a sign that says "drop that ass" .. shes gonna go with the whole gangstaaa lyric type shit for her posters.. haha, that should be interesting! At one of the Hanson concerts i went to last week some girl had a tank top she wrote on that said "zac fuck me please" an don the back it was like "i wanna see zacs pee pee" .. im thinking ohh my lordddd this is HANSON!! haha
Afterrr all the girls chilled for awhile we watched a lil adult swim with the boyss.. then Kara and Kendra left.. then Amanda went to bed.. so me n katie stayed chillin with joe and chris again.. till 1ish i think. I didnt end up getting to bed till after 3.. sooo, im pretty tired right now.. but thats alright, i can take a nap later! Im gonna get in the shower n get dressed.. i have to cash my check, pick up my trip pictures.. and then im going out to lunch with amanda and the babbyy.. :]!!
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| so, im starting new. |
[28 Jul 2004|11:35am] |
I want a journal type thing.. just some place i can write, SO IM GONNA USE THIS! I kinda miss having my site.. but ive been so busy, and when im not.. im lazy, and then theres the whole fact that my computers such a cunt and I dont think I could manage to have the patience to put anything together right nowww.. SoOo, this will have to do!
Yesterday was an alright day, Katie picked me up at like 11.. and we went over to the bagel shop for lunch because Kara was working.. thenn we went to this place on main st. to get our eyebrows done. That place is soo effing cool.. we're gonna go back and get facials. I never even knew it existed until recently bc our friend Erin works there and told us about it.. Nordstrom Skin Care.. if youre from around here, gooo there :]
I managed to finally drop off my film from the Jersey/Philly trip.. I cant wait to see those!! I'm listening to THE WAYYY YOU MAKE ME FEEEEEL.. michael jackson, haha.. it soo reminds me of the trip! We were in Philly walking around the subway trying to find the right train and this song came on.. and all 4 of us were just singing and dancing around :] GOOD TIMES!
AND YEAH, Amanda is the coolest friend ever and stayed an extra hour so I didnt have to be in till 5.. and the whole reason for that was, me kara and katie all put in on some WAYNEEEE and we had to wait till around 5 for the guy.. and it all worked out perfect bc he called at like.. 445.. so i got to work on time. Work was alright.. we were short handed, it was just me and kara.. but it wasnt extremely busy.. after kara left i just busted ass till close and was done by 1015. Sean worked last night.. and that was the first time we talked since all this stupid shit happened.. bleh. I really hate keeping up this bitchy front.. bc its not me at all, but i dont wanna just.. be all nice about everything either. He asked if i had found "that lucky guy yet" .. psssshh haha. I wanted to roll my eyes and be like
"why are you asking me this" but.. I didnt. I just kinda laughed and explained that i hadnt.. and the guy ive been into for awhile now.. I dont like anymore. Everything else we talked about was pretty general stuff.. which is good because I hopeeee he doesnt say anything else to me.. like he used to. He obviously hasnt learned ANYTHING from this situation.. likeee.. MAYBE HE SHOULDNT CHEAT ON HIS PREGNANT WIFE! little effer.
AFTER WORK! Amanda and Katie picked me up.. and guessss who the fuck was sitting in the parking lot.. SEANS WIFE! OHHHHHHHH my god i was fucking scared.. I mean, shes pregnant its not like shes gonna jump out of the car and beat me.. haha, but.. i havent seen her since all this shit, and since she found out about me and sean.. so i was just.. scared. I got in that car so fast.. i was like "AMANDA.. GO.. NOW.. OH MY GOD." haha.. but after that the night went pretty well. I chilled with kara, amanda, katie, and kendra.. we smoked a little... ACTUALLY, a lot. I was way too blazed last night.. it was insane. Kara had to work this morning at like 7 so her and kendra left around 1130ish.. and amanda was pretty tired too.. so me and katie just chilled with chris and joe for awhile. Chris had southpark on dvd so we watched that till a lil after 1.. chris is cute. He told me hes gonna get family guy on dvd so we could come over and watch it.. i was like sweeeeeeet, i love family guy.
Ive been having really weird, sketched out dreams lately.. which is strange bc i NEVER have dreams like that.. i keep getting the feeling that something really bad is gonna happen.. which isnt good! SOO, i hope nothing happens..
I work at 4 tonight.. with AMANDAAA.. yayy <33 Its almost noon.. i guess im gonna try to get something done.. ill write tomorrow :]
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